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A happy 5 X 365days (:

2011-04-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

yes, the title spells it all. (:
indeed i had a fulfilling 5 years anni with love yesterday! hehe
we had a pleasant surprise and best anni gift ever!
HDB sent an email and we got a ballot for our flat! yayness!!! teehees
I'm looking forward to it. & love was laughing out loud when he read the email HDB sent us and i really mean LOL when we were in prize station playing e virtual fish game with everyone around us looking at him. -.-
i seriously wanted to shut his mouth up at that very moment. haha!

Went furama riverfront's The Square to have our anni dinner yet again.
enjoyed much even though we were spending our whole day in prize station catching fishes. =x
& all these pretty sums up my fulfilling day with that cheeky him! (:

2011-04-06T21:04:00.001+08:00

Snipped off my longgggg hair! :(
anyway, I quite like the way it is now.
hopefully it will remain the same way as it is now after I wash my hair tmr!

11th apr is approaching! & it spells happy 5 X 365days to Bi and myself! <3

2011-03-30T20:27:00.002+08:00

Yes, I know.
It has been long since I last blogged.

& here I am trying to clear the webs off my blog.
Can't find any inspirations to blog about now and then.

The future that I vividly imagined is getting nearer and nearer. It seemed out of reach in e past few years and now, everything seems so real. Hopefully I made the right decision and hopefully what we applied for will come to a good result. Shall reveal the details when the time comes. (:

2011-02-07T17:16:00.001+08:00

Happy gappy cny ! (:
I thought i would spend my cny unhappily this yr,
but everything turned out even happier than i thought.
Thanks love for taking care of me when i was feeling v sick during
the first day of cny. <3 & for cny, I'm always indulging in my all time fav buffet dinner with B n his family. I know its sinful but i dont give a damn. hehe

How true it is huh. :p

this time round, my sis joined us & it made me feel happier. Not forgetting, kite flying and movie with family on e 2nd day of cny made me felt e warmth of my family once in a lifetime.I will always rmb this special moment of e family bond cause this
very moment is not easy to come by.

2011-01-22T00:25:00.005+08:00

Picture speaks a thousand words. & here it goes. (I realized that i havent been uploading pics for a long period of time) (:

As usual, e cheeky face of him appears.

2011-01-13T22:33:00.003+08:00

definition of love through wikipedia:

Love is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. In philosophical context, love is a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection.

personal attachment. seems like it only applies for me towards you and not e other way round. This simple word called love, seems so simple and easy. but in fact, it is also where alot of us has difficulty understanding the real meaning of it.

a fairytale gone wrong.

emotions out of control.

2010-12-27T00:25:00.003+08:00

Was browsing through the net and i came across this paragraph that made sense applicable to the real world.

"I’m a liar because I won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes i’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a pushover because I like making people happy. I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because I’m too nice. I’m weird because I’m not like you. I’m fat because I eat when I’m hungry. I’m clingy because I don’t like to be alone. I’m insecure because I care about what people think of me. I’m no fun because I’m not always hyper. Don’t try to tell me who I am because i already know."

yes, be truthful to yourself at all times. Be who you are and not be someone you are not just to fit into peoples likings.

2010-12-19T20:54:00.001+08:00

finally, common tests are over! applying for a job at doggiestyle cafe which consists of a dog spa cum human dog restaurant at nex! Waiting for an answer now. hopefully everything goes well. (: this is definitely a job which best suits me cause I simply love dogs alot! (: (:

2010-11-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

容忍的人其实并不笨，只是令可对自己残忍。

2010-11-05T13:02:00.002+08:00

You always say one thing after another. How am i suppose to believe which is which? & i wonder how much longer can i carry on hanging on like that if this is your way of expressing yourself. Sometimes i really hope that I will find e strength and courage to make a decision. Guess i'm such a weakling to do so.

2010-10-27T16:59:00.003+08:00

First week of sch has started. Everything will be quite free and easy for e first week. I dare not think bout e following weeks to come as the topics that we're taking this sem seems rather heavy and tensed up. I've got a hectic schedule to manage for e weeks to come by. Work, school, driving, meeting love, all of em coming at one go. It's making my brain contract just by e thought of it. Been wanting to go somewhere to enjoy and relax with love but singapore has like limited places to go bout? Will be planning on a trip together next yr's march. yes, a getaway only during march itself. There's still few more months to go before we can both fully relax and enjoy ourselves. We had to compromise in order to fit both our schedules. and both our families wanna tag along too. -.- I thought it would be just us aloneeee to enjoy, eat and relax like nobody's business. On a random note, I think i grew fatter during this holiday. Sweetie and piglet felt e same way too. hahaha! Ate too much good food with B already. gotta cut down our expenditure on eating! :D

2010-10-16T21:38:00.002+08:00

been busy working that I've no time for relaxation. I seriously need to mend e hole in my pocket! had been spending more than earning recently. One more week left to sch reopening. & i need to buck up on my gpa grade. Am left with another 1 and half yrs more to go before graduating. I wonder what exactly lies ahead of me? The weather is getting extremely hot and stuffy recently. Which equals to my bad temper thats acting up recently. I get pissed off easily when i'm feeling uncomfortable, especially when e weather is so bad. well, shall end here for now. Working tmr again! = beating of housefly!

2010-09-28T20:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday marked my 21 years of living. Birthday party celebration was a great and enjoyable one last sat. Frankly speaking, I didn't have much expectations of my party and to my surprise, it turned out pretty well for me. Guess when one don't harbor any heavy expectations, things will go smoothly and happily for them. No disappointments, no unhappiness. I'm still unable to upload some of my 21st party photos as my laptop is still under virus threats. zzz. & this lappy, for some stupid reasons, can't even sense my SD card. Ok, back to my 21st topic, I really appreciate those who made e effort to turn up and I love all the presents and handmade card from my lovely girls! (: THANKS!

Thanks sweetie for spending time and put in all her love in making a cute and pretty card for me. (: Thanks beloved satay for her 1st handmade card to me which touched me to tears the moment I saw it. (: Thanks my ever cheeky and playful piglet for her small lil handmade card to me with words of wisdom bout my future. haha! (: Thanks my sweet smelly honey for her card and royce chocolate even though she did not turn up for my birthday, but made such an effort to bring her wishes down to me! (: & lastly and most importantly THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS & A MILLION THANKS to my one and only MUMMY! (: She really put in a lot of hardwork and effort towards e preparation of my party, decoration of my party, ensuring that the caterer's food turns out fine, ensuring that my guests are all well served and full and many more! Words can't describe my gratitude towards her cause all of them is felt by my heart. I'm really really touched. I LOVE YOU DEAREST MUMMY! =)

& today marks the 3rd year ever since my beloved buddy left me one day after my birthday. My buddy is forever and ever till I part from this world, be engraved deeply in my mind and heart. He was the best companion I ever had and I deeply regretted my negligence towards him. While i'm typing this, tears unknowingly start to fill up my eyes again. I guess I will never ever be able to forget the torment that he went through and the laughters and joy that he brought our whole family. If i could turn back time, I would definitely treasure every single moment with him. I'm thankful that sometimes, I'm still able to dream of my beloved buddy. At least, I can still play and stroke his fur, hug him tightly in my dream. I miss you buddy. Hope you are happy and healthy wherever you are now. Loves much.

2010-09-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

It's mid-autumn festival! Somehow, i can't even see the full moon. :( getting busy with my birthday stuffs recently. Am i feeling excited or neutral? I don't even know, & i can't sense my emotions somehow. senseless or what. Guess everything's in a rush and I just couldn't find time to feel what I'm feeling. & my dearest mummy is such a perfectionist, wanting everything to be well planned and done. There's just that little pressure that she's giving me but I know and understand her thoughtful intentions towards me. all and all, its because she loves me and wants to give me the best. (: Based on this one and only thought, it just warmed my heart wholeheartedly. I love you mummy!

2010-09-13T21:07:00.002+08:00

Will someone ever be happy to be with a person that has changed drastically in his/her character?

I doubt so.

I keep avoiding thinking about it and I know that sooner or later I have to face it. Please prove to me that you are someone worthy of, for me to put in so much effort and time.

If there was ever such a thing called time machine...

2010-09-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

brain cells all out during exam hall today! Finally the war is over! But somehow, why do i still feel uneasy? Hope that I will pass for today's paper. Felt that it was hard in a way or another. & my stupid laptop is giving me a heart attack for e first time! & why did it just had to die on me when I had already finish my papers and wanting to enjoy my free time?! What's best, tml is a PH and fujitsu's customer service is not open on sat and suns. Luckily i still have a old faithful Dell lappy with me. If not, I'll rot to death without 3 days of using e com! Alot of things are piling up and waiting for me to settle them one by one. I'm so tireddd. and i officially declare that I'm in need of $$! bought decorating stuffs for my birthday preparation today. I want it to be a perfect one with no flaws! hahas Like it's ever gonna be perfect. In my dreams! Everything in life is not perfect and never will be cause humans are just too difficult to get satisfied with what with have! Just wanna crap around to myself here, that explains the stupid stuffs that I've blasted out here. ok, gonna enjoy my time nw!

2010-08-23T23:09:00.003+08:00

Had my first driving lesson today! & the car stalled for 3 to 4 times! :( manual is so complicated. and i nearly banged onto a car of the next opposite lane which was coming from the other direction! stupid or what. Can't the drivers on the road be more courteous and not bully those drivers with "L" plate? ok, enough of driving. I have yet to start my revision for the first paper on 3rd sept! I seriously need some motivation, but i can't find any of them at home. I'm already in a holiday mood.

& there's too much things going on recently. I seriously don't know and can't find a reason why there's just so much commotion going on in our group. It's like we've been cursed or something. Too much of internal conflicts going on in clique. For the matter that I'm involved in, its really just too tedious for me to carry on thinking about what the other party is thinking. Like the saying goes, it takes too hands to clap. Nothing can be solved if only one party is putting effort in or when the other is putting the blame on another. Misunderstandings are usually caused by the lack of understanding between each other. But when will it ever end? In this kind of competitive society, whereby you need to depend on your own survival skills in order to outwit the others.. Will there even be occasions where words like "reasonable and honest" come in? I doubt so. Nobody will even give a damn to how you feel or if they had hurt you. You only can depend on yourself and trust yourself. Of course, there will be a few people whom are exceptions.

For that recent incident of the dog being bashed to death, hope that damn idiot get his retribution soon! Fines or being in jail for a few weeks is never enough to pay for this poor little helpless dog's life! Can you imagine the pain and torment the dog went through? It's dying in pain slowly, bit by bit. Being thrown against the wall for ten times, how does it feel like? My heart really ached when I saw this, I can't help but cry and feel sad over it. I really give in all my heart for these poor animals. Don't ask me why, but I just feel so. It may sound stupid to cry over this "small matter" which non-animal lovers will feel so, but to me, I really hope that the dog will have a better next life. & spca has been urging witnesses to come over and assist in this matter so as to apprehend the beast! surprisingly, till now there's no new clues over it. People can be so selfish and afraid to voice out in order to minimize going through troubles. Really don't get it. Lets just hope for the better and that damn culprit will be caught soon.

2010-08-13T21:24:00.002+08:00

I'm going to breakdown soon. I want to go somewhere far and never get back here. It's like you're carrying a whole pile of brick in your mind and heart walking throughout the whole of your life! Why is it so that being happy takes years but being depressed takes seconds? & when happiness comes your way, the next pile of shit will fly right to your face. Guys who treat girls like shit should go and bang the wall, get into a concussion state of mind and hopefully, their mind will be fine tuned to a perfect attitude of treating girls right!

2010-08-09T20:13:00.002+08:00

Somehow, I'm beginning to doubt if our friendship and bond are strong enough.
I'm tired. Tired because I've tried my very best to salvage it.
I know and I can feel that I've been lying to myself all along.
I won't force things to go its way anymore.
Maybe we just don't have enough fate to be friends.
Really appreciate you for being there for me when I'm down.
But, you seemed nonchalant bout our friendship.
Weak enough to forget my presence I suppose.

P.s: Am not pin-pointing anyone.
I just need a lil space of my own to voice my feelings out.
Please don't make any assumptions.
Thanks.

2010-08-07T22:26:00.002+08:00

" Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her... " - unknown

"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction."
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery

It always takes two hands to clap. Compromising is a key factor in a relationship. You can't expect either party to give in to you all the time and taking it for granted. Years of relationship takes a lot of time and obstacles to go through till it becomes hard like brick. It is not as easy as what other people may see, it is not easy just because you had already overcome other obstacles together. Being together for years doesn't mean that your relationship is already strong enough to overcome some other obstacles that may come tomorrow. The important factor is if the love for each other is strong enough to overcome all these hurdles. If its one sided, it is rather obvious that the relationship wouldn't be able to sustain the weight of problem that you are facing.

It's sad to see friends by your side, breaking up with their boyfriends one by one after being together for years. I always wonder, why does the problem always lies in the guys but not the girls? I'm not trying to be bias or so, but this is what I know for most cases that I've heard. In reality, most guys always take a step back after successfully being able to get what he wants in hand. Is there some sort of common mentality set in them that it is a challenging process to woo a girl. The harder it takes, the more they will want to get what they want in hand. & after they've accomplished their "goals", for the first few months or so, guys will be sweet and loving to their gfs. Next thing you know, they get tired of the same routine with their loved ones and feel that they need more freedom. Sometimes, they just don't get how girls can get so happy and contented easily with the simplest things that they do. It is the thought that counts.

After being together for long-term, they actually forget the reason of falling in love with the girl when all this first started.

2010-07-24T12:59:00.001+08:00

get well soon mummy! hurts me to see you so weak and strength-less. =(

2010-07-17T21:33:00.002+08:00

I think i can die while having impromptu speech. my hands were shivering non-stop when I had the question paper with me. We had to choose the questions by doing it as if we were having a lucky draw. & I chose a question with quotes for that 3 min speech. Frankly speaking, i'm not sure what e hell i was blabbering about for that 3 mins. All I knew was I have to talk continuously with the whole class staring at you.

Life's always full of obstacles. The next moment you fall, & the next moment when you manage to stand up strong, there comes another stump of block that makes you fall again. It's a cycle that humans can't fail to get rid off. Each day, I'm learning by experience as I fall. I love and thank my friends who were there with me during that period of time or even supporting me behind. It doesn't matter in anyway, as I know that they are & will be there for me throughout difficult times. Much loves to you-know-who-you-are. (:

Anyways, my msn had been hacked by a virus or whatever thing it is. So, if you happen to be reading my blog, please take some sweet time of yours to add me up at my new email address. joeii_c@hotmail.com
Thanks in advance! (:

2010-07-10T15:09:00.003+08:00

is learning to treasure really that hard? if there is significance of me in you, explain why i cant find that feeling of being valued?

2010-06-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

define family, cause I don't seem to understand and feel the meaning of it.

2010-06-27T21:08:00.002+08:00

school's starting tomorrow which spells boredom! I can predict my IS module tml is gonna be super bored and plain. and final exams are coming in 2 months time. after submitting all the projects, it will be time for mugging. Luckily my birthday is gonna fall after the final exams, at least i can celebrate it with a peaceful feeling. hahas

oh, and we'll be getting back our common tests marks on tues. I hope it won't be a disaster. & I'm seriously in need of money man. money for shopping, upcoming birthday event, love's birthday present ( which I owed him for a few months already ), etc. :(

alrights enough of my craps.

2010-06-22T22:09:00.003+08:00

am shutting my doors.
this is what you all want.
For me to keep silent from now on and you all wont know whats going on in my mind.
I have no value to anyone in this world anyway.
Sick and tired.

2010-06-12T19:26:00.002+08:00

Are there really rainbow bridges over at the other end for our dearest loyal buddy? If there is, I hope that my buddy is doing well and happy over there. Cause I miss you so much.. regrets are what that is left.
That kind of feeling is really terrible.
If only time could allow me to rewind back to the past,
I promise I will learn to treasure and let my buddy enjoy to his fullest.
I'm sorry...

2010-05-30T19:36:00.002+08:00

When things have changed to what we thought it wouldn't be, its high time that we will have to face reality and move on with life. cause time wouldn't stop just for you and time will not rewind back to the past where everything was still as per normal.
No point acting like everything's going on fine when it isn't. You'll just present yourself to look much faker instead. When a person has put his or her heart to really give up on something, that is the day that he or she won't be bothered to care anymore.

2010-05-27T13:33:00.002+08:00

Came to clear e dust tats piling up on my blog. hahas seriously, life is getting so boring nowadays that i don't know what should i blog about cause the everyday routine of mine is soooo standard! school, out with bf, out with friends, slp, eat, slack & blahblahblahhhh. Seems like the earth is getting more & more damages, cause the weather is getting freakin hot! =( global warming... can really kill. I can't imagine what's the weather going to be like for the next twenty years down the road?

& i've come to a conclusion that I won't want to care anymore,
cause it is somehow not being appreciated and
not worth of my time wasted and concern gone unappreciated.

2010-05-11T20:32:00.002+08:00

there's alot of things that i've been keeping to myself lately. yes, i've been out of my character lately as I'm not the kind of person to do so. but it seems that i can only do so this way. Cause there's no where for me to vent it out and say it out loud. When will people start treasuring their loved ones and not take things for granted? I suppose its only when you lose them. I hate that feeling when everything is bottled up inside my heart. It seriously sucks.

♥♥♥♥

2010-05-01T23:09:00.004+08:00

my new ♥..

Love bought me my advance birthday present! Burberry classics! I'm super touched and happy! (: (: Thanks alot Bi! Much ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ to you! <3

2010-04-25T18:29:00.002+08:00

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2010-04-18T18:30:00.002+08:00

School's starting tomorrow!!
which spells projectsssss + examssss
Holidays are gone just like that.

2010-04-11T22:22:00.004+08:00

Happy 4th yr ♥ !

Something not to be boastful about but something to be happy about!
It doesn't matter how long you've been together as long as the feeling is still there.
It's been another year of ups & downs.
& each yr, we have to face different stages of obstacles, be it bout
school, work or accommodating with one another.
I'm happy to face it all with you being by my side.
Hardship that we've been through will turn sweet in the future
& that's what it is all about.
Going through so much and get stronger each time u fall.
I believe the difficulties won't just end like that as there'll
be more to come in the future.

Thanks for being patient with me when i'm feeling stressed out.
Thanks for guiding me along with your experience and exposure outside.
Thanks for tolerating my nonsense at times when i'm bored.
Thanks for listening to my rants when i'm feeling low.

& I'm glad to be the one that you'll first call when you're happy bout something.
I'm glad to be the one that you'll voice out to when you're stressed.
I'm glad to be the one whom you'll ask advice for.

Thanks for being an important part in my life.
I appreciate it a lot sincerely from my heart. (:

much loves ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-04-02T12:27:00.002+08:00

April Fool! & managed to trick ppl yesterday. i know i'm bad but just can't help it. =p speaking of which, love and i started to know each other better 3 years back on april fools day. & he was silly enough to get tricked by me too! its so funny whenever i think of it. hehes school is starting soon in 2 weeks time. how time flies.

wong shanshan! if you're reading this, you'd better been to the doctor already! if nt you'll know ar! (: (: take gd care!!

2010-03-25T15:26:00.003+08:00

new timetable's out. didn't get into the class that i planned to be in. :( cause i need to accommodate with bi's off day and timing. & hopefully ying will get into the same class as us.. it will be rather dull without her around. weather's super gd now for a nice nap. (: bye peeps!

2010-03-22T21:48:00.002+08:00

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost."
- Charles Caleb Colton

Yes, in reality, you wouldn't know how much a friendship holds the importance within you until you lose it. What are true friends? which of them are really sincere and which of them are not? People tend to take things for granted unknowingly and by the time that they are really awaken, its already too late to know the real meaning of treasure. Sometimes I really feel that I do not exist in your circle of friends. It seems like things that I've done for you is already erased and forgotten about. I don't expect things in return when I do you a favor.. All i want is just to be remembered as a part of the group. is that too hard to even do so? I want to think bout things positively but a repetition of things that I've seen don't allow me to do so.

& i'll just carry on to pretend that i'm happy cause deep down, i'm already numbed inside. Never have expectations so that you won't get disappointments. how true can this be..

2010-03-19T13:34:00.002+08:00

exam result is finally out! a heavy stone thrown away from my heart! (: happy that I had improved on my GPA and at least had one A. It's better than nothing right? =) had finished watching autumn's concerto (下一站，幸福）. I seldom watch idol dramas but I was influenced by cliques. hahas. It was seriously a nice & touching drama! I love dramas that has nice and meaningful endings but not just any happy nonsense endings. Wondering what drama shall I start to watch now to kill time! Speaking of that, I went to work just to kill time but in the end had people who spoiled my day. such an ass. I hate arrogant freaks. They just act like their supervisors or something when they are just sales assistants? Making a fool of themselves around but I won't just let them bully me for nothing! (: please just don't trigger onto my nerves. thank you. ok, I'm getting bored. I just type what I feel like typing randomly. & i miss my girlfriends! be it wongshanshan, cat wongwong, that cheeky piglet, ting and whoever laaaa! & satay also! had a long talk with her on the phone few days ago and yes we all hate spoilers that affect our work but who cares as long as we're happy. (: & satay you will, you can and you would definitely pass your driving! don't worry ok! (: (:

alrighty, shall end my post here now. bye peeps!

ignorance is bliss, silence is virtue. somehow, can I really ignore and gain happiness in that way?
I'm really bothered with the changes that you had recently..
the one that I once knew, her image and pleasant character is really fading away in my memory
and overtaken by a character that I'm starting to get sick off. =(

2010-03-14T16:32:00.002+08:00

Out with bi and his family after his work to Furama hotel for buffet dinner at the square restaurant. Nice ambiance but there's nt much variety to choose from. anw, had an enjoyable time with them as usual. The warmth that i get to experience, is unmeasurable. (: Will start work from tml onwards. Short working hours but better than nothing as i still get income rather than just going out and spending tons of money everyday. meeting satay after my work tml for dinner at town area. lots of catching up to do eh. update more soon. (:

2010-03-05T13:22:00.006+08:00

celebrated catherine's 21st on tues. first stop of destination was at science center as they wanna go explore body worlds. Some of the exhibits were rather disgusting but I really enjoyed myself there with the accompany of my girlfriends! (: spent some time exploring the other parts of science center, cam-whoring and not forgetting have fun around. Next up, to marina square's pasta waraku for dinner. Thanks so much girls for accommodating me to have the dinner there, knowing that I went to have my braces tightened. (: much loves. Sang the birthday song after our meals, and handed cat the digi cam that we bought for her. =) home sweet home after which when bi called to rush me home. had a fabulous time spent with them!

2010-02-27T22:01:00.004+08:00

exams are finally over! it was really lucky for me that i managed to understand that alien programming codes. it was a big relief for me! (: the weather is sooo damn hot nowadays, making it so hard to concentrate on studying. bt well, its all over! wheeee~ i'm so gonna enjoy the one and half months holiday period. its either by learning driving or find some place to get some income rolling in!

shall backtrack to thurs which was bi's sister rom day. (: it was a pleasant and blissful one. to hear them take their vows and to exchange rings for one another. that sweet sensation filled the whole room up. =p after which we went over to shangrila hotel for high tea buffet. the food and desserts there indeed carried the 5-star's hotel name well. dessert was an ultimate pleasure for me. (: & we went to search for nice ambiance there for photo taking. & guess what, there was the so called flower throwing session and instead of throwing, bi's sis just went up straight and pass it to me. & bi's parents & other relatives was like asking me when's yr turn? hahas there's still a long way to go. i believe that there will still be much more difficulties that we'll encounter with as we go along and it will all depend on us, on how we'll go through the difficulties together.

& somehow i believe, that hand-in-hand, step-by-step, we'll make it through. much loves to you bi. (:

2010-02-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

i'm going crazy! please tell me how to pass my programming when i duno a single shit bout it! damn!!! this will be the last paper.. & i gotta muggggggg hard! bye people!

CURLY WURLY

2010-02-05T13:25:00.002+08:00

Finally, i went to revive my curls 2 days ago. I was quite contented with it. (: thanks to my dearest mummy who sponsored me for it. hehes tons of love to mummyyyyy. =p major exams are coming and i have yet to really touch any of the topics. This coming cny's gonna be a hectic one as i have to run to certain places and juggle with my major exams at the same time. totally siannnnn.

Will be catching up with my dearest cheeky satay tonight for a nice dinner at serangoon gardens! its been ages since i last met her. & i reali miss her like hell, speaking of this, i reali miss my cliques outing!! & fiona kor! dont say i never mention yr name alrights. hahas shall end here. tatas~

& tonight's gonna be a gd gd night~ (:

2010-02-02T19:47:00.002+08:00

y did u wanna make me pissed off with you? seriously you're such a damn ass liar. fuck. You dont deserve my respect at all since u dun even respect me. U brought down my mood and triggered onto my nerves. happy now?

2010-01-24T14:50:00.002+08:00

had been quite sick for e past few days due to food poisoning. i reali hate it. puking non stop till i had no strength at all.

projects due date is almost up. gotta complete it soon. alrights shall blog more when i'm feeling better.

2010-01-15T13:46:00.000+08:00

^%!$^*&^%(^%#$#&^$%^!$^%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IN A BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD MOODDDD!!!!!!!!!

hateithateithateit!

2010-01-06T17:06:00.002+08:00

tightening of braces ytd & its giving me probs... arghhh. its so painful till i'm having headache nw. wad's worse i have a wisdom tooth growing out now. =( i dun wanna go operation!! hopefully its a gd wisdom tooth not those that will hurt yr gum or teeth, or else i'm dead. alright, more tests coming up and project is getting all piled up.feelin so shagggg.

2010-01-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!
May 2010 be a good year for all! (:

shall update more soon! cyaaa!

2009-12-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

watched this with B this afternoon. It's definitely a must watch cause it was extremely touching. All e great heroes who died during the revolution of Qing dynasty. i wanted to cry so badly but due to the mindset that I cant go out of the movie theater with my eyeliner and mascara smudging i had to control. =x & i usually wont watch this kinda movies but I'm always influenced by B. he would always drag me to watch all this bloody and fighting scenes especially if theres great history in it. -.- I just hate watching blood splashing around and those sudden gun shots right in e middle of e head. Dinner at dhoby guat's sakura with B's family. As usual, enjoyed it with them. (:

2009-12-18T20:39:00.003+08:00

woo~ common tests over , holidays are here! macro is so chim today. i hate true false questions cause i'm being tricked by it! damn. i'm gonna enjoy this short holiday time period cause test 2 will be freaking held in jan followed by final exams after CNY! i reali hope i can get a memory card installed in my brain. meeting B tml. i'm happy. (:
ok, i feel so random. tatas

yes, been long since i last upload pics. so pardon e self shot taken. =p

2009-12-08T21:12:00.002+08:00

its gonna be a hectic week. LMS presentation tml, past few days focusing on it. PBA common test on thurs & i dun even know a single shit bout e codings. Fri, come to sch only for maec but need to rush off to help mummy for her company's d&d which is at dxo. -.- first time clubbing with mummy. cant imagine that. gonna be her runner for that night too. on a side note, can use that as an excuse to let B allow me go. wahhahhas opps. =p

& why izzit that guys easily understand e codings so well?! i'm gonna bang wall nw.. cause i really dont understand e codings!!! helpppppppp please

2009-12-03T11:24:00.004+08:00

i'm glad that things are finally getting better.
home sweet home soon in no time, well hopefully its gonna
be sweet this time round.

Thanks to all my dearest friends for their concern to me. you're all loved, including B (:
just a mere 2 hours spent with B and we both enjoyed it like
nobody's business on tues.
I'm can't c him for e rest of e week already. =(

common test week is approaching, stress is gonna pile up soon.
programming is so hard!!
mug, mug and mugging nw!

2009-11-24T22:28:00.003+08:00

I'm really touched by my friends support to be there for me when i'm down. thanks alot. especially satay. so busy and yet make time to come down all the way from woodlands to dover just to accompany me and making sure that i'm fine. thanks for yr present and donut dearest satay! love ya truckloads!!! (: and thanks to ting for being there for me coming down at e void deck at night to accompany me that few days. thanks sweetie!! nt forgetting ying too (:

I hope that i'll be alright in no time.
the same thing, i really miss them alot.

2009-11-21T20:42:00.001+08:00

Family : father and mother i love you

I really miss them alot..
my heart reali aches alot it just feels so sour.
I miss home.

2009-11-17T20:16:00.001+08:00

excel's project is driving me crazyyyy! & common test is coming nxt month!! shit,shit,shit

2009-11-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

why do i feel so depressed. I hate this feeling.
Had a happy day with B, bt in e end, made e decision to meet sis and family for
dinner and ended up getting this mood.
idk why, seriously things always happen this way.
its been more than 1 month since i last talk to them.
things just always dont go our way, isn't it?

2009-11-09T20:33:00.000+08:00

I miss B loads!!!!! :(

2009-11-04T21:45:00.002+08:00

skipped sch for the day.bad headache and sore throat. didnt slp well the whole of last night. all this was a result of tightening my braces -.- one more yr to go and thats it. the price to pay for beauty is high and tough. heavy rain nowadays and after which super sunny again. makes ppl fall sick easily, so take gd care alrights my friends! (:

2009-10-29T22:07:00.003+08:00

had been rather moody for the past few days, thanks piglet for listening me out..thanks sweetie for the concern. & of course, i love B super lots for always being there for me. (: you're such a blessing in disguise. why do i feel that time is passing faster and faster day by day..as tml is already fri when i was just feeling that kind of Monday blue few days ago. or mayb that its because i didnt spend each day meaningfully that's y. =x wadeva kinda logic that i'm self-proclaiming, I just reali hope to do something meaningful soon. like mayb helping out in booths of ASD for raising donations through selling their stuffs? fyi, ASD stands for action for spore dogs. yes, i reali love dogs to e max and those who r close to me will know what happened to me that i gt a fear of touching dogs cause i'm reali afraid i would tear unknowingly cause deep down i reali missssss precious bud so much. alrights, shall do my part for those poor lil abondoned dogs soon i hope, when i put aside some time. (:

2009-10-26T19:32:00.004+08:00

@#$%^&*()*&^%$@##%&

say all you want for all i care!
i'm juz a transparent glass in this fcuked up family!
I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS STUPID SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FEEL SO BAD NOW ! I WANT TO VENT OUT MY ANGER BUT DAMN IT I CANT!
I JUZ NEED A SPACE OF MY OWN I GT FEELINGS IM A HUMAN NT A GLASS FREAK!
JUZ TELL ME HOW TO BE HAPPY WHEN EVERYTIME U GET HOME U JUZ CANT CONTROL TO NOT FEEL UNHAPPY!

I juz need u all to understand me. is that so difficult to accomplish, by understanding me as yr daughter?
what do i like and dislike?
it seems that what i did for this family is unseen, neglected and taken for granted.

2009-10-25T15:31:00.002+08:00

Celebrated sayhui's & philip's bdae at lunar on fri. Hope they've enjoyed themselves. (: jess couldnt make it as she was sick..get well soon gal! & shan had to study for coming O's.. if nt it would have been more fun with them along. well, best of luck to yr coming O's ok honey! (: From tml onwards, stress and projects would be coming our way. arghhh. hate it hate it hate it. still gt another 2 and half yrs to go. damnnnnn. regretted nt studying hard back in sec sch days. Bt.. come to think of it, if i hadnt been to ite, i wouldnt have been able to meet love there. =x wahhhahas sounds like crap i know. i'm so boreddddd nowadays. spore has limited places to shop already. its either here or there. hmmm... B promised me to bring me outta spore once he gets his bonus. hopefully will be able to gettt awayyyy a lil while. will be looking forward to it. (:

take me away, a secret place, a sweet escape~

2009-10-20T19:47:00.002+08:00

its day 2 of a new term start in sch. am nt even in e study mood yet. macroecons look like it could kill. =x well, luckily there's no tutorial for e start of week 1 at least there's still time for us to relax. my hair is getting duper long and i wan to go perm it back so badly, cause e weather is damn hot nowadays!! and for this i need $$$ again. almost everything also need $$$ involved.. and where shall i find that resource of $$ from? -.- alrights, enough of spilling craps into this post. cya peeps~ (:

2009-10-15T13:40:00.004+08:00

what is family warmth? cause i didnt even get to know the feel of it. Only through seeing how happy friends are with their father & mother .. or through dear's family when they treat me like their own.. only do i feel the warmth from there..bt the warmth that i suppose to feel within my own family isnt there and wont be there..

2009-10-11T21:58:00.001+08:00

down with sore throat, cough and running nose. couldnt work for e past 2 days, which spells lesser income into my bank. v.gd

2009-10-07T22:44:00.001+08:00

busy working, working and working for now and next week till sch re-opens. will update when i'm free. tatas-

2009-10-04T15:08:00.002+08:00

Worked 4 days of oktoberfest for e 1st time with friends. was quite fun except for all e Caucasians touchy part. -.- had to try so hard to avoid them. it was worst for e ambassadors. thanks to sinyee for getting me into this job. (: well, am feeling damn shag all over now, still have to go for wedding dinner later on alone, yes alone. great thanks to that ass who ps me. wadeva... i'm so nt in e mood nw to continue typing on. i need some space to vent my anger that's all.

2009-09-28T16:49:00.003+08:00

Today this date...its been 2 years. I'm still missing my precious bud.(those who are close to me will know what i'm referring to) Always will stay in a corner of my heart. (: The love will not fade & change too. misses lotssss. :(

2009-09-27T22:53:00.004+08:00

Yes, am already in the "20" 's group starting from today. Sounds damn old =x wahhaas celebrated this special day of mine with B & family. This cheeky fellow lied to me that he didnt manage to get me my present ytd so I would have to be disappointed today bt in e end he surprised me with Citigem's bracelet!!! wahahhas thanks Bi!!!!!!! loves loads! (: Anw, its not the present that counts afterall, its always e heart that counts! I'm already happy that I would be able to celebrate my special day with him year after year. I hate that my Bdae always fall during F1 grand prix cause love would always want to come home early to watch!! -.- thanks F1. Lol. ok I'm being lame here but still, watched F1 with him at home and this yr's ferrari team is lagging behind alot. :(

I enjoyed today alot (: thanks B. you are totally loved! (:
Feel so blissful and warm in my heart when Bi & family sang e bdae song. =) hehes

Blogger cant upload pics! arghh. shall upload it some other day! & thanks to those who wished me! appreciated! =)

2009-09-26T20:03:00.002+08:00

surprised & touched once again by my beloved cliques! they sent me a birthday card just before my birthday! although its simple & plain but filled with sweet wishes from them! hahas sounds mushy i know but its a fact! Never regret making friends with them its a right choice from e start!
Love u gals! (: THANKS!

EARLY 20TH BDAE CELEBRATION!

2009-09-23T22:03:00.012+08:00

yes, as seen on my title.. Jess and I had a duper wonderful early bdae celebration or shld i say surprise by my beloved cliques!! (: THANKS THANKS & THANKS!!! =) our bdae celebration would not be pleasant without you all. I reali treasure & appreciate e effort you guys put in. hehes =p this is gonna be a wordy post + lots of pics. So those who have no patience kindly scroll down the whole post for conclusion will do. =x whahaas

alright, met up with 4 lovely ladies first none other than 1 of e bdae gal Jess, Ying, ting and sayhui. (: they were e early birds who helped us chop place first. thanks! (: after which shan and yamei came, speaking of this, shan had a hard time shaking me off as I insisted meeting her at mrt.. in e end she lied to me bout something and I gt disappointed..her reason for lying to me is bcoz she need to safely transport our bdae cake to e restaurant without us knowing. Hehes thanks for e effort too!! (: joanne came next she wanted to surprise all of us too so she lied that she was at Jurong when it was already 6pm plus bt e next moment she popped out of nowhere. Hahas. Darren reached e last due to working bt its alright as long as everybody came! Woohoo ~

oh, & e place that we went for steamboat was Zhen Fa's buffet steamboat which was opposite Novena Square. Service was so-so, some had super stinky attitude. Bt we still managed to be in our own world like e whole restaurant was our's that only our voices filled e entire restaurant. Hehes After eating we had photo taking session, joanne was duper funny during this part. She was helping us to take photos and we posed there for quite some time bt she was still taking pictures. -.- ahhaas i started to get suspicious and went over to her. Jess and I decided not to care & started cam-whoring. Suddenly everybody gathered in front of us and here it goes e bdae song! ^^ hahas was super paiseh they sang veri loud especially joanne!! whahahs bt overall i reali enjoyed myself thanks babes & darren!! Lol. (: You ppl made my day!! =)))) I loved everything ... e surprise, cake, presents and most importantly my cliques!! It wouldnt be e same without u all. hehes. alrights enough of talking.. pictures shall do e part nw. enjoy =)

Yes, evidence of bullying e small one(piglet)!! wahahhas

Wonder gals?? + boy?? 0.0

did some actions that didnt coordinate with them :( so censored!

bt definitely nt middle finger ok!! LOL

introducing ms yamei's bike.

look at wad shan was doing to my piglet!!

the candid "waaaa"(left) and "orhhhh"(right) look. -.-

Bling!!! Love it! (:

My lovely ladies!

candid 2 =x

Darren open yr eyes!! o.o

Ok, finally opened! =p

cramped face =x

blurred. =p

Blowing candlessssss

this was e part where Joanne was trying to buy time! Lol

Conclusion: I LOVE MY CLIQUES!! WOOHOO~ ENJOYED ENJOYED ENJOYED TO E MAXXXX ! (:

MEET UP SOON ALRIGHTS!! TONS OF MISSES!

2009-09-19T19:34:00.002+08:00

dyed my hair. (:
& i love e colour.
will upload photos some other day. hehes.
Looking forward to cliques gathering this coming tues! steamboat for dinner!
Let's have some happy times together after sooo long. =p
Till than~

2009-09-18T13:45:00.002+08:00

woohoo~ passed every subject. felt a sense of relieve, didnt even slp well last night. tossing & turning about. felt so tired bt still managed to drag my feet up to view exams result. Gotta buck up for next semester already. & i'm gonna dye my hair within this few days. 3 yrs since i last dyed my hair. abit sua ku i know. =x & its raining nw.. shiok. weather has been so hazy and warm recently. Makes me feel like slpinggg. =p B is so busy and sick for this week, hardly have time to meet up with him. Gotta work full shift when he is still sick. :( shall wait for next week than. Alrights, i'm going to keep myself busy with things now to kill time. cyaa people! =)

2009-09-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

gd luck to my friends for tml's exam results! *praying hard.

2009-09-15T19:49:00.002+08:00

finally Comex IT show has ended. was damn lethargic after the whole show. Sales was competitive,had a hard time selling, dealing with diff customers, didnt even have time to eat my lunch. by e time i can start to eat my lunch will be during dinner time. -.- bt overall, managed to boost my sales for e last day. & e company's ppl were all cmi attitude. anw, saw quite a number of familiar faces there too. will be working Oktoberfest for this yr. Yes, $$ coming my way again. alrights, update other time still feeling so shag..think i would need time to replenish my energy wasted during work. byeeeee!

2009-09-09T22:00:00.001+08:00

will be working at comex IT show tml.. burning my weekends for e sake of $$. love will be working there too bt stationed at different lvls i think.

Alrights, today is 09-09-09. gd day for marriage uh. =x wahahas. anw, received this sms from my lil sis. Lame bt makes sense thou. Today is wednesday & wednesday has 9 letters. It also happens to be e 252 day of the year so 2+5+2=9 & lastly today is said to bring lots of energy, happiness and lots and lots of luck. ok, end of sms. =p I'm probably getting bored with nt much to write in this post thats why i'm sharing this. -.-

well, shall update more after e whole IT show ends. after which will be working F1 i hope or most probably. alrights, cya peeps! (:

2009-09-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

i just need a break.

2009-09-02T22:41:00.003+08:00

Was bloody pissed off by an interviewer today. damn it wasted my time there. Nt professional at e same time still can ask nonsensical questions. bt i'm glad that i managed to happily shoot him while answering all his stupid questions. went K with ting and ying today at chinatown..yes i no its budget bt what to do when u have limited $$ right. Enjoyed myself today with them (: its been so long since i last went K. desperately looking for jobs nw.. i need $$ in my bank a/c. shall end here.

yes i know, that i look damn shag with heavy eyebags in e above pics. -.- this is e cause of insufficient beauty sleep so pardon me.

2009-08-30T15:46:00.002+08:00

watched final destination 3-D with love ytd. some parts were super gross. =x & e ending was like -.- . after which as usual walked arnd marina and suntec. It's getting boring as there's not much places that we can go nw. everywhere is like e same. worked at close door event for samsonite on fri. Nv work for so long suddenly muz stand and serve for 13 hours. can die. wad's worst is that i walked e wrong direction when i wanted to walk to lavendar mrt, instead i walked all e way to dunno where den waited for cab, board starting fare $3 , reached lavendar mrt, $3.40 only! =x felt that i was so dumb. Exams result will be out on 18 sept... miec can reali kill. wonder how would i fare this time round. Even if its just a mere pass i would be happy already. well, shall end here, blog some other time. cya peeps! (:

2009-08-27T21:10:00.002+08:00

finally back to blogging. exams are finally over bt im nt at all happy. thanks ar that person who made me angry.
feeling so fucked up now!

2009-08-11T21:08:00.001+08:00

update soon after exams are over!
in a stress mode. zzzz

2009-08-02T22:01:00.002+08:00

As usual, went to meet bi after sch for dinner on fri. Dined in at suntec's astons and ordered my fav deep fried chicken. My teeths were a lil pain and jaw was tired after biting. reason cause.. u know.. braces. -.- I enjoyed that day much with b although we were both half dead. & my bag with that damn lappy inside was so heavy. Alrights, final exams are coming in bout a weeks time for e 1st paper. gonna mug hard from tml. =x today shall be e day for me to relax first.

shall update more when i'm free. (:

2009-07-26T12:26:00.004+08:00

Fri: Met up with dear after sch at dover, off to marina square for our usual routine.. playing our fav games shopping arnd. After which took bus to my godmum's hse as i'm meeting daddy mummy there to send godmum to changi airport. By the time we board e bus, dear told me eh i think we took e wrong bus, this bus stops at the other side of yr godmum hse. which means if we alight we have to walk quite far. -.- ok, initially i thought walking far is still ok, but when we alight we had to walk through inside dover ite. & its freaking creepy. =x dim lights and not a single soul anywhere. thanks ar dear. hahas ok, finally we saw a human like uncle & asked him for directions. That bf of mine still can tell me he dun like to walk inside a sch at night one. -.- wadeva. reached our destination & off to airport. fyi, i hate going to airports to send ppl off cause my tears will auto start to flow. cant seem to control it. & love stayed overnight after accompanying us to send godmum off. (:

Sat: Shopped at orchard ion & orchard central with lovee. bt too bad there wasn't much to shop arnd. & orchard ion LV's queue was so exaggerating in e end i accompanied dear to taka's outlet. Nt a single person queuing up like e usual weekends. I thought every LV is e same? o.o Seldom go out on weekends already as dear is working bt i'm so duper happy ytd! =D i really really treasured time very much ytd. As usual, it always seem to pass so fast especially when you're feeling happy. =x hahas. Dessert at amk hub's M.O.F. slurps. =p alrights shall end here for nw. & i'm super missing mr bf already!! :(

2009-07-24T14:32:00.002+08:00

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2009-07-23T22:47:00.002+08:00

random pic that we took few weeks ago. (:

I'm feeling all stressed up.
tons of things spinning through my mind.
projects, sch works, exams, personal stuffs.
sighs. e feeling sucks.
Can someone be kind enough to sponsor me to a getaway soon?

2009-07-18T13:45:00.003+08:00

finally stats test and bcomm group presentation was over. gt a feeling that i will flunk stats. wadeva.. did my best alreadi. ytd after sch, went out with cliques. gave honey a surprise. wahahas. cause i lied to her that i cant go as i was sick. bt i was reali sick e previous day so told her nt going bt in e end i still went. =x ok i duno wad i'm typing also. dun bother. -.- had dinner with them after which mac cafe to chill. i think our laughters were e loudest there. we were somehow e centre of attraction, thanks to meiying. lols. She was e onli one laughing & laughing non-stop. ok, had a great day out with them!! =p & fiona kor, pls take gd care ok. i know u were in a bad mood due to yr breathing difficulties. anw, happy to meet u after so long. misses! (:

Somehow, i had really been in a lousy mood these few days. Or should i say i'm happy when i'm outside bt once i step home, my mood changes. you all juz wanna provoke me each time when i did nothing wrong. if that's e case, fine juz go ahead.

it's sat bt i'm at home with no where to go. hw great is that. i miss love so much. sighs.................
poor you still gotta work during weekends for e sake of moneyyyyyyyyy.
well, shall find some programs for me.if nt i'll rot or juz die of anger at home sooner or later.

i feel so invisible & redundant in this family. hate ittttttttttttttttttttttttt.

2009-07-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

i had enough. feeling so @*^#R(# nw.

When will it ever end? bii i need u by my side nw. pls get me outta this house soon. we shall work hard.

whywhywhywhywhy

2009-07-12T13:21:00.002+08:00

idk why....... im feelin super moody nwadays. DAMN IT.

2009-07-10T11:43:00.002+08:00

wooo. been sometime since i last updated. didnt have much time to update in fact. projects all coming back to square one again. Anw, nothing much happened for e past few weeks. Went night safari with love's family the day before. Luckily there were 8 free tickets. hehes. thanks to dear's sis. (: & when we reached there, we went to ben & jerry first & dear's sis treated ice creammmmmmm. slurps. wahhaas. yes, sounds greedy bt i really did enjoy eating it slowly. =p blackberry yougurt and strawberry cheesecake flavors are nice. (: apparently i held on to dear super tightly during the whole safari trail. cause it was reali pitch dark, & i was super scared that something or some bats might juz pop out of no where. =x & yes, i have to agree that stamina goes along with your age. Walked arnd for 30 mins & my body was already aching all over. E only part i enjoyed was getting up close with e bigggg leopards. e distance between us was only seperated with a glass panel. e funny part was dear's small lil niece went up to e glass there & knock against it with e leopards looking at her. she wasnt scared at all. hahas.

alrighs, enough about safari thingy. Had so lil time to go out with dear recently. sighs. only can meet up for a fast dinner after which he has to go for night classes. okkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, anw i will be able to meet him later for sushiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. wahhahahs. yesyesyes. im craving for salmon!! wait for me sushi!! ok, im going mad.

update more when im free. till than~

2009-06-27T13:27:00.002+08:00

It was IQU's class gathering ytd..yes, i-kill-u. =x finally gt to meet shan. Hardly had any free time to meet her ever since we've been busy with our own things. glad that we could actually meet up. (: for my cliques, only piglet,shan and me turned up except for yamei & bala. Really reminisce e past where we all played arnd and mug hard in class. well, let's have another gathering soon eh. =D ytd was quite enjoyable..except for that waiting for ppl to come part. hahas. shan & me reached there rather early. We reached at 4 plus, whereas e others reached at 7 plus? (: played uno, monkey and volleyball as we were all too bored. photos shall be uploaded soon once i received them.

Suppose to go out at this timing already as it was love's off day but he was dragged back to work morning shift as there was clearance sale. what's worse is that he needed to work full shift tml instead of only 8 hrs. sighs. work is nt easy at all. i can really sense his tiredness. luckily i'm still able to meet him later arnd 5 after his work. each & every moment together counts. (: okies, shall end here for nw. cya peepsss!

2009-06-21T21:30:00.005+08:00

finally get to meet lovee today as it was his off day. (: from 2 days a week to 1 day a week. bt that one day can mean alot eh. could mean spending more time with each other and all. yes, absence makes the heart grow fonder. so, we definitely treasured today alot. (: oh well, went marina again as usual.dunno why it seems to be the only place we could hang out in spore. wait till dear gets his driving license and car, den we can go much more places. yeah, shall wait for that day to come uh. hehes btw, recently i have a fetish over babyblue or blue clothings idk why. =x blue is my fav colour all along bt it came about recently only for me when choosing clothes. wahahhas. blue is loved. =p

& i'm missing angeline satay, honey and definitely missing gatherings with cliques as well. too bad schedule doesn't fit well. :( gals, take lots of care ok. shall meet you all soon i hope.

&& idk why when i go out with dear & theres a bridal booth or something, we are confirm 100% chop the target for them to ask us to take a look on e wedding albums and all. today gt one auntie even wan us to commit 100plus dollar deposit but gave us open date till 8 years. lols. =x who knows wad will happen few years later rite. even if we gt the money nw also wun commit cause its tooo risky. (:

i feel so loved!!! woohoo~ in a damn gd mood man. wahahhas :p i so wanna curl and dye my longggg irritating hair bt no $$. damn it. anyone kind enough to sponsor?? =) i'll be most welcome to accept that sweet offer. whahahhas. jk.

signing off with loveeeeeee.

p.s : pardon me for the camwhoring part. =x always as usual. hahas

2009-06-19T13:16:00.002+08:00

rotting away... sighs. my blog feels dead with no pictures. shall upload some soon.

Do i even know what i want?? & i miss you so much. :(

2009-06-11T21:30:00.002+08:00

Common tests are finally over!! struggled with 4 days of hell. =x hopefully will be able to pass. hahas congrats to my love.. ORD today already ar. (: bt it also spells the start of yr work next week, which means lesser time to accompany me. For e sake of our future, i know you have no choice. ): ok, back to topic.. overall i feel that i only have confidence in micro of all subjects. =D for the others, a border pass for me is already a blessing. =x hahas alrights shall update more soon. till than~

2009-06-01T12:52:00.002+08:00

freakin fed up !! having mixed emotions!! ): imy so much.....i reali dun know why...but i know all hard work is worth it cause its for our future. trust is the key point here from nw. & i know you wont let me down. (:

i need a getaway.

2009-05-27T13:41:00.007+08:00

haven been blogging for the past few days. had been real busy completing assignments for e-learning week. -.- assignments and projects are piling up as usual. common test is coming in a week's more time & i've yet to fully understand stats and miec. :( hopefully i'll absorb as much as i can when the time comes. Went out with love ytd, & i duno why, somehow, i cant bear to part with him. =x lols. sounds nonsensical bt ya wadever. =D Time with him always passes sooo fast. Last week, we went over to marina barrage as well. Weather was damn hot that i had no mood to walk arnd. =x The only part i enjoyed was the gallery cause there was air-con there. lols. ok, i loved one part where everything there was almost blue..e lightings and etc. =p my favvvv. Shall go there during e night another day. I love night sceneries. =D Well, shall end here for nw.

This bully here was trying to show off his straight teeth cause i had braces on. =x

forever being so playful huh.

yes, its in every girls habit- to camwhore.

That small lil handmade card from me to dear ( his 21st bdae)

The v. nice bluish concept that i love =D

2009-05-21T09:56:00.002+08:00

thought bout alot of things that you told & asked me yrd... its a serious thing & i wont want things to go wrong... bt mostly, i'll go with what you say... so ......... i'll be looking forward to our life long commitment soon. (: planning ahead. love you!

celebrating love's bdae tml!!! =D happy 21st dear! old already hehes. =) bt i still love you always!!! =p

2009-05-19T19:51:00.003+08:00

I'm happy because............................................................................. (:

Soon, we'll be able to have a status.

2009-05-15T21:36:00.002+08:00

Post dated pics : Mummy's birthday cum mother's day (:

the D.I.Y cake that i did for her.

Alrights, presentation was over today. like finally. was so nervous at first but managed to calm myself down at the end. & e teacher's comments on everyone was like so irrelavent. i felt there was somehow no link. -.- oh well, shall not talk bout this. At least, everyone had their burden off their chest after e presentation. =D piglet's ez-link card had gone missing. o.o that blur gal. hopefully by mon when we go to e admin office, some kind souls would have already passed it over to e office. Meeting dearrrrrrrrr tml. (: i wanna go marina barage with him!! i wanna go lots of places with him before he officially come out & work at e retail line & seldom have weekends to accompany me anymore. =( but...... i'll still be here to support him in whatever he do. Still would be able to meet up at least for dinner i hope. for our future, we have no choice but to do some sacrifices right. alrights, shall end here for nw. till then~

2009-05-14T21:10:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna have bis comm presentation tml!! damnnnn. nervous like shit. =x hopefully i wont exceed that 3 mins timing. & hopefully my voice projection can be louder. i've seriously been trying to present loudly. we'll be in a bigger classroom tml. tell me hw am i suppose to raise my voice den. -.- btw, i'll be presenting on how to put on eyeshadow. videoed the demo dwn done by myself. My model: ting. =p thanks sweetie for helping me out. =D gd luck to that 2 sweets of mine.. piglet & ting for tml's presentation!

2009-05-12T21:22:00.002+08:00

Compromising, is e step to take to solve quarrels especially in a relationship. Bt i always know that after every hurdles that we've crossed, our love will become stronger and it always gets better each time. Till ytd did i know, that i mean so much to you. Every single thing that you've done for me is small bt yet thoughtful. I'm really touched ytd. (: Thanks dear for always having e patience and care towards me. I know you're not that type of sweet talker or romantic type, bt its ok. As long as i know where i stand in yr heart, it does nt matter anymore. & i could finally confirm my position in yr heart ytd.. one month more to yr ORD and it will mean e start of working towards our future. I'll always rmb wad you've said.. be the woman behind e successful man. =) & that you wanna start finding a job to work hard so that you'll be able to let me enjoy life at home in e future. i know you dote on me, reali do. love ya lots. (:

2009-05-11T11:15:00.003+08:00

Woohoooo~ juz came back from dear's 21st birthday celebration!! (: felt so happy for him to have his family, friends & of cause not forgetting me to be there to celebrate for him. I can feel that he was really satisfied and happy. =) yes, mummy & daddy was there too.. they went jackpot with dear's dad. =x stayed up to wait for dear to finish chatting with his friend till 5am. -.- damn shag. Woke up as early as 7am in the morning, dialled for mac's breakfast for his sis & us.. ate,& cabbed down to school. Love ya dear!! hope you enjoyed yr celebration!! hugs (: Gd news, i havent even done a single bit for wed's project & fri's presentation. :( siannnsssss. oh yes,btw happy belated mothers day to all noble mothers for giving birth to us. =D shall end here with love.

photos will be uploaded soon.